Should I stay or should I go

I know. It's about time for an update. I do know. And I could start babbling on about hectic schedules and exams and having been crazy busy and it would all be true, but- hands up who does not want to hear it! That makes two of us already.

Anyway. I'm in a bit of a crisis at the moment, but in a good way- as far as that's possible. Times of change are always also times of opportunity, but I guess the freedom of too many opportunities can at the same time be limiting. Choice is wonderful, but crossways also make us hesitate and worry- sometimes less choice is easier.

My friend Paula and me always have this discussion about whether life would be easier if we'd never left home. She usually starts talking about it when she feels a bit lost and then wonders if she wouldn't be just as happy or happier at home, having never seen the world, but also not knowing what it's like. I can see where she's coming from, but I need to disagree. Not only in terms of travelling and living abroad, but also in terms of generally exposing yourself to risk -and life!- and ups and downs, I have always been an advocate of living life fearlessly and fully. I believe, in the end, it's always worthwhile trading in steady mediocracy for higher ups and lower downs. Everything in life is a risk and everything can and does hurt. But everything also has the potential to be beautiful for those who are ready to see the beauty. I think there's nothing wrong with staying in the same place and being content while not knowing how beautiful, amazing and sad the world out there is- there is no right or wrong way. But having opened that door once and let the world in, we cannot close it anymore. Knowledge cannot be undone. Now we're exposed to the world and have more choice, which can be painful- but it's good too. I wouldn't want it any other way.

I've been thinking a lot about these things lately. About how important geographical closeness is to your family and old friends and if you should trade some of the adventure in for it, or if keeping the closeness in your heart can be enough. Basically, if I should stay or go. I'm walking towards the crossroad, once again, and I'm not sure yet which way I'm going to take. I tend to believe though that there is no wrong decision- every way can be made right. Sounds easier than it is.