I feel fine, God damn it!

Do you ever get days where you feel great until everyone asks you whether you are alright, after which you suddenly start to feel bad? I had one of those today. I had more sleep last night than I have had for a long time and came into work feeling great. On top of that, I thought my hair looked particularly good when I left home and I strode into the office happily, ready to take on a big day. My boss was already there, which is highly unusual- he usually gets in about 10am. He was on the phone when I walked in and nodded at me- he looked a bit stressed. I gave a wave and a smile. When he got off he phone, he asked me a question before even saying hi and then looked at me with what I felt was an accusing look and said, "are you ok?" To which I answered, slightly irritated, "yes- why?"- "Oh, just asking."

After that, I already didn't feel quite as chirpy anymore. I went upstairs to make myself a coffee and walked past Ben, the cleaner. "Morning Ben. How are you?"- "Good, thanks. Ahem... are you alright? You look really tired." I started to get annoyed. "I'm fine," I said, now feeling grumpy. "It's only Tuesday," Ben added. "You can't be that tired already on Tuesday." I took a deep breath. "Thanks Ben. I felt fine before everyone started to point out that I look like shit."

After that, I had to go to the bathroom to check whether I really looked that bad. Well, I looked grumpier than before, that's for sure. And there was a little dark shadow under my eyes that I hadn't seen before. Damn you people and your stupid self-fulfilling prophecies.