How Bettina learnt a lesson from a little boy

I hate being unemployed. I wish I could get myself to enjoy the free time, but it's a struggle. Which is pretty strange, considering I usually value my free time like a precious treasure. But being on holidays is worlds apart from being unemployed. I feel like I should be job-hunting around the clock or else I feel guilty. I realise this is uncalled for and I want to hit myself over the head for being so stupid, but I don't think that would help either.

I went for a long walk in the rain this morning, which was lovely. It only rained a tiny little bit, which felt as if someone was constantly spraying a fine mist of water into my face and over my arms. Considering it's stinking hot at the moment, it was perfect. When I was almost back at my house, I walked past this older style house with a huge trampoline out the front. And there was this little boy, all by himself, in the rain, jumping up and down on the trampoline relentlessly, as if nothing else in the world mattered. He looked so happy and relaxed that I couldn't help but smile. I stopped and watched him for a while and when I continued my walk, I thought to myself, that's what I need to do. Live in the moment as if nothing else mattered. Because once the moment is gone, it will never come back. I shouldn't be wasting any of my moments with silly worries or wanting to hit myself over the head for no reason.

Maybe I should myself get a trampoline.